January 16th, 2018
No one is going to stand up and hand you a plate of progress in life. You must make progress by your own sheer will, discipline, and efforts every day.
– Brendon Burchard
December 9th, 2017
I have not been tracking or logging anything for the past 2 or 3 weeks.
I had felt like it wasn't doing anything. There was no motivational umph to it. There was no reason I was doing it other than to do it. So, I stopped doing it.
I think that was a mistake.
Today I'm am starting to track and log things again. I am doing this because I believe that it will be the beginning of a trend for me. A feeling that I am accomplishing something. A quantifiable thing to look at as I start to work toward some personal goals that I am beginning to flesh out and brainstorm.
So, I am going to be logging what I eat and drink into my Fitbit app again. I'm going to start weighing myself again and throwing that into Fitbit. I'm going to start up the bullet journal that I have neglected for too long to track my chores, tasks, to do's, wants, goals, and ideas. I'm going to start reviewing my day in Exist.io again.
I'm going to to all of this and more as the holiday season starts because I want to hit the ground running come 2018 and not let my demotivational procrastination derail me from reaching the goals that I vaguely hold as intangible ideas.
November 29th, 2017
I am not a morning person by nature. I can, if needed, be ready to go shortly after waking up. But, I much prefer to take my time getting ready for the day.
It is not unusual for me to spend 2 hours drinking coffee and browsing the internet while watching YouTube videos in the morning.
Sometimes, I feel guilty at "wasting" the time.
Sometimes, I understand that I don't need to be productive all the time everyday.
Sometimes, I call myself lazy for my morning habits.
I think I read too much productivity porn on the internet and need to forgive myself more. I don't have to be busy 24-7. I don't always have e to be doing something.
So.etimes it is okay to watch YouTube and just be.
November 22nd, 2017
When wealth is passed off as merit, bad luck is seen as bad character. This is how ideologues justify punishing the sick and the poor. But poverty is neither a crime nor a character flaw. Stigmatize those who let people die, not those who struggle to live.
- Sarah Kendzior
My favorite is this barely illuminated outpost along a fence. Anything could be hiding in the darkness.
For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.
- Eric Roth
Source: whiskey river
when you meet that person. a person. one of your soulmates. let the connection. relationship be what it is. it may be five mins. five hours. five days. five months. five years. a lifetime. let it manifest itself, the way it is meant to. it has an organic destiny. this way if it stays or if it leaves, you will be softer from having been loved this authentically. souls come into, return, open, and sweep through your life for a myriad of reasons, let them be who and what they are meant.
― Nayyirah Waheed
My days normally follow a regular routine.
I get up between 8:30 and 9:00 am. Make a cup or three of coffee using the Keurig. Open my Chromebook and sit on the couch and read RSS feeds for a few hours. Then I notice that I haven't done anything with my day so I do chores for about 30 minutes. All of a sudden, it's 2 pm and time to get ready for work.
It sucks to realize that you've wasted way a day doing nothing but, reading articles and looking at pictures online. I could have been using that time to exercise and get in shape, read actual books instead of clickbait articles, or even learn a new skill.
So, today, I am saying that I am done with that routine. That routine lead to procrastination and the "I don't want to do this now" thinking that has contributed to the feeling of being stuck that I've lived with for years. It will be hard to make the adjustment. There will be times that I don't want to do what I've planned for the day. I know I will stumble and fail on the way. I will forgive myself for those stumbles and start again the next day. I am to get better at being the person that I want to be instead of continuing to be the person that I am.
I've said all this to myself many, many times over the years and I've failed to break the habit. Why will this time be different? I don't know if it will. But, I want to try to break the old habits that I've built and start new habits that will lead me to where I want to be.
I want to be more active. I want to read more books. I want to be in better health. I want to learn new things. I want to grow as a person. I want to change. Sitting on the couch reading RSS feeds hasn't helped me change so far so, I must change what I'm doing.
I don't know if it will stick but, I hope it will. I'm going to give it my best shot and try not to get discouraged when I miss a day, try not to beat myself up for a misstep and instead get back up and continue on the road to change.
October 26th, 2017