I have always found it hard to make plans. Not the taking trip kind of plans. In the personal growth, tasks & projects, kind of plans.

I want to do things.

Build a website
Plant a garden
Cook more
Exercise more
Get healthier
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I have lists of stuff I want to do. Some in my head, some in Evernote, some in physical notebooks, and probably some other places as well.

My problem is the doing part of the plans. Well, that and breaking down the plan into smaller pieces.

It is one thing to say 'I want to get healthier' and quite another to say "I will stop smoking, eat more fruits and vegtables, get regular exercise'.

But even those smaller steps require smaller steps themselves to accomplish.

It is a never ending parade of smaller steps until you hit one that you can start with.

My problem has always been that I can't get through the first or second round of the parade before I give up.

I have no endurance.

No endurance to put the plan into motion to start the plan.

I just want to be a better person magically.

I know that is not houw it works in reality.

It would be nice if it was though.

Here's to a new year of struggling while working on bettering myself.