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James Shelley shared an idea about silence yesterday

We are so enculturated to fear the quiet that we call it ‘dead air,’ ‘awkward silence.’ We viscerally react to the absence of noise and happily fill the void with another commercial.

I'd like to add to this a bit.

I believe the fear of quiet goes back to when people lived in the wild without shelter and is a strong defense mechanism. The wild is hardly quiet. Animals always make noise except for when a pretador is prowling and the prey doesn't want to be hunted; then the noise stops. Quiet in the wild is the trigger that something is happening and it most likely isn't good.

Now, I may be mistaken and sharing something that is factually incorrect. I hope not because I quite like the idea that absolute quiet is a trigger to our lizard brains that something is wrong and we need to be more aware of danger. Of course, this is the exact opposite of how many of us live today. We want it to be absolutely quiet when we are laying down to sleep, when we are our most vulnrerable. This change in behavior is fascinating. The idea that shelter and our modern societies are so at odds with our animal instinct is intriguing.

I'm at a loss most of the time for why I do some of the things that I do. The power of habit means that I routinely do some things that I want to not do. I want to work on not doing these things but, like most things, I find it hard to actually do (or rather, not do) these things.

Here's a good example:
Every morning I get up and make coffee, open my Chromebook, and start scrolling through RSS feeds.

Why? Because that's what I do.

I think it has to do with wanting to do something in the morning that will lead to something in the early afternoon before work but, it never does. It is just a habit that I have fallen into and find it hard to break out of. Extremely hard.

Another example:
I know, really know that I need to prepare and plan my morning the night before or else, I'll end up on the couch with my coffee and reading RSS feeds for hours. But, when I come home from work, without fail (even if I tell myself that I won't do it this time) I sit in my chair and turn on the TV and watch something for a couple of hours. All while ignoring preparing or thinking about the next day.

Why? Because that's what I do.

How do I break these cycles of doing things that I know I want to change but, have not found a way to stop doing them?

That is what I struggle with. There are more than these two examples but, I won't go into all of them because, well, they're personal.

I know what I need to do to break these habits. I just don't know how to break these habits.

It starts out small and it builds. It starts out by just doing it. Not by thinking about it or wishing that I could find that one magic trick to make my habits change but, by small continuous action, every single day. By not beating myself up for not doing it one day but, by trying again the next day.

By Just Doing It.

But, sometimes that is easier said than done. When you have years and years of habit built up, it is hard to break that habit by just doing something else. At least it is for me.

I guess I just need to start doing what I want to do and quit complaining about not doing what I want to do.

I want to do more with my time than I do now.

  • I want to read more.
  • I want to learn more.
  • I want to garden.
  • I want to have projects.
  • I want to have a hobby (I guess gardening would count).
  • I want to watch more movies.
  • I want to watch more TV.
  • I want to cook more.
  • I want to play more video games.
  • I want to blog more.

It feels like there isn't enough time in the week to do what I want and I haven't learned how to prioritize what I want so, all I do now is meander around the internet and drink coffee before I have to work in the evenings.

I want to do more with my time but, it's hard to break old habits.

On Tuesday March 20, 2018, president Donald Drumpf tweeted:

This occurred after the 6 month deadline he gave congress to fix the "controversial" federal policy known as DACA (Deferred Action for Childhood Arrivals).

This occurred after the republicans and democrats worked on various compromise legislation that Donald Drumpf torpedoed before a bill could be worked out between the chambers of congress.

This is not the first time that Donald Drumpf has tweeted a DACA deal is so easy to do.

And my personal favorite

A pathway to citizenship for undocumented children who were brought by their parents? Really? That's just not going to be passable in either of the Republican controlled chambers of congress. That is literally the complete opposite of a deal.

But the best part of all of this to me is that our president is so obviously lying about what his priorities are. He's not interested in a deal unless it has everything he wants and nothing the other side wants. That's not a deal.

And back to my first reaction on seeing that tweet today:

Drumpf created this mess by ending the policy itself.

If it's so easy to make a deal; why haven't you already made a deal?